[a pastiche in prose] It began with a realization that a life bent to others’ expectations - no matter its excellence - lacked the spice of self-satisfaction. And so starts the journey of self-deception for the search of the ‘ideal’ soon proved a foolish reveal. Here the experience of recrimination and accusation cut so deeply into myself even as I bend to thrust at others. “Oh, you foolish, foolish man... Why do you search for such a pure life when all around you so cleverl

We had met way back, many, many lifetimes ago, and fell in love with such an ease that we never questioned it. Our life was idyllic, sharing ourselves with no fear or ego, openly, trusting in each other and in the care we felt.... And out of it grew this abundant joy, one would say we shared one breath and one heart, in perfect union, together... so perfect was our Love that it survived even beyond Death, linking us together, fated to find each other in every future incarnat